Random melancholy...

I woke up at 3:30 AM today for some reason. *shrugs* No reason really. James Lau, Steph, Mel and Javi were still online at this time, lol. They seriously don't sleep much. I fell asleep again for a few hours at 5 AM-ish then went to uni by 9 AM in Caulfield. A bit of a mistake on my part. I didn't need to go to uni at 9 AM. The 'film' was just some documentary on the making of the film from last week. Gah, what a waste of time. I spent the entire time on MSN with Magdalene and filling in past blog entries. Mag said that I seem to have a rather melancholy outlook of life right now? I wonder how true is that...

Went to uni for screenings. It was Kuro Shitsuji and Bamboo Blade again! Yay, was good. I sat on the ground with Stan, Lucy and Rachel! Hehe. We were the awesome ground crew. After that we attempted to have dance practice but Alan ran off to go shopping and Lee was in lab. So we cancelled that! Me and Zac was gonna go to Chaddy today to buy swim goggles so yeah... we did! Kim, Tom and Sam came along, hehe. And off to Chaddy! Uhh... I bought Speedo goggles for $25. And at Coles I bought some butter. Haha. We were in BORDERS for quite a while, gossiping and fangirling over the various manga there. Tom and Sam bought like 8 volumes between them. Then I went home. It was dark.

Using my butter, I made double chocolate chip cookies. They turned out surprisingly good. Normally I don't bake things well, haha. Dinner was umm... those stringy Korean noodles with Kimchi, jellyfish and some yummy meat by Jia Chee. It was really good. I kept eating since kimchi makes food appetizing or something apparently. Then we had jelly for dessert (and my cookies). Uhh... after everyone was done I spent an extra hour downstairs baking the remaining batch of cookies. There are so many! This is my snack for the week, hehe. Am trying to cut down on how much I spend on chocolates and stuff. Hopefully it works (I sort of doubt it though...).

Night was spent studying, MSN, the usual. Another peaceful and fun day. I wonder what it means to be melancholy. I'm sort of drifting along happily. I still think something isn't right but I'll slowly figure out what that is one day. I mean, there are always things never right anyway. Shouldn't let it affect me. Should look at what is in front of me. Cause there is so much more to see I guess. *shrugs* I think I'll lay off the contemplation today, haha. If I do that everyday I'll burn.

"I really don't think life is about the I-could-have-beens. Life is only about the I-tried-to-do. I don't mind the failure but I can't imagine that I'd forgive myself if I didn't try."